Why am I up so late creating a family tree on ancestry.com instead of sleeping???

Tbh, I’ve always wanted to know more about my family tree and research my genealogy and all that. I mean, I just think it would be really cool.

From what I remember, I currently have 10 living relatives. I think my uncle has two more kids. I don’t even remember?? My father once commented he had like 7-8 siblings!! I don’t know if all of them are alive. I mean imagine that family tree exapnsion right there!

The only person I know who would know is my aunt. Though I rarley speak to her cause shy, idk. And I feel awkward just messaging her like ‘Hey so about our family and your siblings and parents…’ Especially since my dad, her brother, passed away almost 9 months ago. Maybe one day I’ll work up the courage. Cause again really would love to learn more about my family tree. And idk know like anything about my dad’s side of the family other than he was born in Atlixco Puebla ¯_(ツ)_/¯

silvandar:

jiho:

jiho:

can you guys reblog this and tag what job you have in your fantasy life? I’m a singer + actress in mine lol

so many people misunderstand this post, I don’t mean your dream job I mean what job do you have inside your head? like in your imaginary world you’ve created

Writer and artist. Also, what you’re describing is called a paracosm, and is actually relatively rare. It’s quite a long way beyond a fantasy or daydream, and most people will never experience it.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paracosm

Oh man, depends on which fantasy, but usually I am rich and powerful, so like hell if I need a job lol.

Though, usually, I do live in a castle like mansion that is in a forest or open field far away from civilization, with a crystal fortress in front of it, protecting the mansion. On either side of the mansion are two tall trees. In the front, there is a beautiful garden of wild flowers. The sky is so blue, a few clouds, with a nice breeze. Just a place where I can be free and healthy. I actually drew this in art therapy, I want to try and maybe draw it again, cause why not and add more detail, maybe:

In my other fantasy, pokemon is real and I am a Team Rocket field agent conpleting missions for Giovanni, lmao.

That or I am fighting this crooked world and trying to take over to establish a better kingdom that, of course, I will rule. I have my own crest and family crest.

I have no idea xD

princess-of-erebor1992:

sbroxman-autisticquestions:

I remember when I worked at McDonald’s. They knew I was autistic and indirectly mocked me for it. Whenever I was doing a task, one of the staff would intentionally baby-talk to me asking if I was supposed to be doing what I was doing. If I was slower doing a task, they’d mockingly say, “Let’s see if you can beat your record this time”, and I was yelled at because I was experiencing a shutdown

Now I’m working at a local pub. When I told them I’m autistic, they were super supportive. The boss told me I could come talk to her if I ever needed it, they apologised in advance if they ever had to yell loudly in the kitchen in case it startled me, they’ve been super helpful when I didn’t understand and have helped me when I was struggling with work

Treat disabled employees with respect. Just because we’re not neurotypical doesn’t mean we don’t understand what’s going on

And this is why I’d never make it in a “normal” job. I have too many triggers that would send me into a shutdown.

Yup and it sucks because society expects you to get an education and work, but it can be really difficult. Not to mention that a person NEEDS money in order to survive, but if you can’t work, well you’re screwed.

Sure, you can get some money from disability and other stuff, but sometimes that’s not enough and if you ever tried to push your physical and mental health by working, you can make your health worse, plus any help your receiving is usually automatically dropped. So, money is forever a problem and it’s become impossible to survive, let alone live in an ableist world that’s run on capitalism.

Sure, there are days when you might be okay going out without too much of a problem. But thebln, there are days when it’s too much. So, how do we go out and do ‘normal’ things when we just don’t know how our minds and body will react. It’s that same paralyzing fear that makes things impossible and makes things worse, if your body does give out like you feared would happen.

And let’s not forget the emotional pain of feeling like a conplete burden, usually to your loved ones. Because you see them work so hard and they’re usually the ones taking care of you to boot. It’s worse, if some of them just say, ‘Oh, you never do anything. Do something!’.

God, knows how, we, who are disabled, chronically, and mentally ill, wish we could ‘do something’. Anything would be better than being trapped at home all day, unable to do nothing. Feeling depressed and worthless. We wish we could also just ‘get over it’, but how can we when science and research has proven time and time again it is something literally imbalanced with our brains. No matter how mad you get, no matter how frusterated or disappointed, just remember if it’s ‘hard’ for you; imagine what it feels like for us who actually have to deal with being chronically/mentall ill/disabled.

I can’t be the only one where college AND mental/chronic illness has you like:

But of course you gotta act like you have your shit together

Ahahahaha

After years, I took the pottermore quiz again, because I started reading Harry Potter again, lol. And it was interesting to see the results:

No surprise here. Always been a Slytherin.

Before it was a Heron, but I like this new patronus.

Sparrowhawks, long used in falconry, make tenacious Patronuses that will send Dementors flying in the other direction. The sparrowhawk will shoot from the caster’s wand, come in close for an attack, and return to ensure its safety. Once committed to an attack, sparrowhawks will never stop pursuing their target. A witch or wizard would have a hard time finding a more ferocious friend!

Looking at the description. I think this patronus fits me more now.

The only difference of my old wand was it being Redwood, I believe. The rest is the same lol.

I was really surprised by this one because previously it sorted me into Horned Serpent. Looking at where I am at currently, I can see how I was sorted into Thunderbird now.

It’s just interesting to see how a person can change overtime, I think.

opossums-are-groovy:

evnw:

railroadsoftware:

handsomejackass:

horse people are weird

what does this mean

horses can see demons

Horses flip out and run even though there’s nothing there to spook them

This is why when I got on a pony, and mind you I had never once ridden in my entire life, and this pony, I thought it was a horse. At least, I thought it was pretty big. I was excited, but also so freakin scared that at any moment it would freak out with me on it. It wasn’t even actually to ride rather a show where kids can get on and honestly I weigh nothing and am small, so the owners let me. Lol.

Sadly, I couldn’t last the entire duration cause was too scared and really just thanks anxiety.

Source: handsomejackass

thatsexyspoonie:

“I wish mental illness was taken as seriously as physical illness!”

Okay, but what makes people think physical/chronic illnesses are taken seriously?

So true. See this is why I had to suffer through PE all through 9th grade and then with my mental health.. The adults and counselors were no help at all, rather who all accussed me of making stuff up as an excuse to skip school and threatning my mother with jail because I was absent a lot. Not to mention I couldn’t get help from doctors because each and every one of them would say I was perfectly fine and healthy.

Heck, I went to see a psychologist one time and they literally told my mother I was fine and like all the other kids my age. I was probably faking or something. Yeah, that’s why I felt sick to my stomach every day and felt more horrible and depressed as time passed. It was just pure hell.

One time I also went to see the counselor, because they said I could anytime I felt sick, and I just sat there awkwardly and they completley ignored me. They didn’t even acknowledge my presence at all. My mother even asked I be homeschooled, since the school had such a program. They refused to give it to me.

I had no idea what was wrong with me. I always felt sick everyday and struggled going to school. I hated the fact that despite all my absences, I still got high marks, while others who went everyday, wasted their time and got F’s.

It got to the point where the school made me sign a contract where I would be absent no more. I didn’t get my voice heard at all. I was ignored and shut down. I felt no one cared about me at all. I was silently suffering, wondering what the hell was wrong with me.

It’s why I contemplated suicide. I would cry every single day and just didn’t want to live anymore. And I’ve never told anyone, but one time I grabbed a knife and just stared at myself in the bathroom. At most, I just self harmed, never enough to leave permanent marks, but I just wanted the pain to go away.

I honestly, don’t know how I got myself out of that hell. Because no one helped me, but myself.

And today, I finally know what I was suffering from – post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, and agoraphobia that were causing hellish physical symptoms.

Experiences like my own are why mental health and awareness of disability (I am legally disabled) are so imoortant! Even today I still struggle with discrimination and an ableist world, just because ‘I don’t look disabled’. I left that shitty school and got myself enrolled in an amazing online high school, graduated, and earned my high school diploma. And today, while I still struggle going to a school on campus because of that horrible experience that just added to my fear and anxiety, I take college courses, via online. Been getting nearly straight A’s.

Again, living in a ableist world is not easy, but I am at least in a so much better place than I was all those years ago.

Publicly share 5 things you like about yourself and ask 10 of your favorite followers.

I was tagged by @knockout-starscream Thanks for the tag!

1. My intelligence. People always tell me I’m smart. I think it shows in my academics too.

2. My cunning.

3. I like that I’m resourceful. Helps a lot with research.

4. My determination.

5. My ambition.

And I pretty much listed mainly Slytherin traits. Lol. I won’t tag anyone, but any person who wishes to do this can tag me if they want!

This Quiz Will Reveal The Type Of Partner You Subconsciously Desire The Most – Psych2Go

psych2go:

Reblog this if accurate 🙂

Open and Non-defensive

In your past, you have encountered someone who never seemed to express how they truly feel and keep it all to themselves. You are tired of walking on eggshells, and constantly worry about how you will upset them if you are not careful.

Your biggest desire from your lover is to be open and undefended, and is willing to be vulnerable. They should be approachable and receptive to feedback without being overly sensitive about any topic. You also wish them to be forthright in expressing feelings, thoughts, dreams and desires to you openly, which includes an interest in personal and sexual development.

Seems accurate

This Quiz Will Reveal The Type Of Partner You Subconsciously Desire The Most – Psych2Go

habeenki:

choose one: fangs or pointed ears, immunity or immortality, wings or horns, greek mythology or egyptian mythology, chokers or anklets, dark red or dark green, glitter or blush, heels or boots, ripped jeans or fishnets, long nails or short nails, vampire or werewolf, oceans or forests, books or movies, phone calls or text messages, rings or studs and skirts or jeans.

Fangs, immortality, wings, egyptian mythology, chokers, dark green, glitter, boots, ripped jeans, long nails, werewolf, forests, books, text messages, rings, jeans