griefonlosingsomeone:

“Traumatic events, by definition, overwhelm our ability to cope. When the mind becomes flooded with emotion, a circuit breaker is thrown that allows us to survive the experience fairly intact, that is, without becoming psychotic or frying out one of the brain centers. The cost of this blown circuit is emotion frozen within the body. In other words, we often unconsciously stop feeling our trauma partway into it, like a movie that is still going after the sound has been turned off. We cannot heal until we move fully through that trauma, including all the feelings of the event.”

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Susan Pease Banitt, The Trauma Tool Kit: Healing PTSD from the Inside Out

Sometimes, you think you’re doing well for a while and then it just hits you. Maybe it’s because you’re too overwhelmed to feel anything. But you have to feel it eventually.

(via survivingsiblingsuicide)

dissociationdays:

– gaps in your memory

– finding yourself in a strange place without knowing how you got there

– out-of-body experiences

– loss of feeling in parts of your body

– distorted views of your body

– forgetting important personal information

– being unable to recognise your image in a mirror

– a sense of detachment from your emotions

– the impression of watching a movie of yourself

– feelings of being unreal

– internal voices and dialogue

– feeling detached from the world

– forgetting appointments

– feeling that a customary environment is unfamiliar

– a sense that what is happening is unreal

– forgetting a talent or learned skill

– a sense that people you know are strangers

– a perception of objects changing shape, colour or size

– feeling you don’t know who you are
acting like different people, including child-like behaviour

-being unsure of the boundaries between yourself and others

– feeling like a stranger to yourself

– being confused about your sexuality or gender

– feeling like there are different people inside you

– referring to yourself as ‘we’

– being told by others that you have behaved out of character

– finding items in your possession that you don’t remember buying or receiving

– writing in different handwriting

dissociationdays:

1. Amnesia – this is when you can’t remember incidents or experiences that happened at a particular time, or when you can’t remember personal information.

2. Depersonalisation – a feeling that your body is unreal, changing or dissolving. It also involves out of body experiences, such as seeing yourself as if watching a movie or floating above.

3. Derealisation – the world around you seems unreal. You may see objects changing in shape, size or colour, or you may feel that other people are robots or generally unreal.

4. Identity confusion – feeling uncertain about who you are. You may feel as if there is a struggle within to define yourself.

5. Identity alteration – this is when there is a shift in your role or identity that changes your behaviour in ways that others would notice.